I want to thank everyone who commented on my blog yesterday, after I posted about how hard of a time I was having dealing with my family, and all the crazy cravings I was having because of the stress I was feeling. It was really nice hearing from caring, thoughtful people.
I sat down with myself this morning and wrote in my journal about my feelings, and I ended up deciding that the reason I got so upset was because it feels like I can't go to my family to talk to them about my feelings or my troubles. The way it's always been is they come to me with their issues, because I'm the stable one, the one who can see things clearly, the one who listens without judgement. But I don't want to always be that person for them. I have my own life and my own issues to work through; I shouldn't have to be dealing with theirs all the time, too.
I'm proud of myself for not giving into any of my sugar and wheat cravings, although I did eat a lot of other low carb things yesterday that maybe I shouldn't have. And my mood lifted after Chad came home and he listened to me and held me in his arms. All I needed was to be listened to and loved.
It's interesting, though, that when my mood went downhill, that's when my cravings got the worst. I've never really believed those people who say that going low carb/paleo will rid you of all your cravings, because I have a long history of emotional eating and I know that many times people eat for reasons other than hunger. However, I do know for a fact that I can't eat sugar or wheat the way I used to, even when I'm eating emotionally. Even a little bit of sugar and wheat can make me feel pretty gross. I get an almost immediate headache with sugar, and a yucky heavy feeling in my stomach with wheat.
I was much better today, by the way. I woke up feeling refreshed, and I busied myself with a large canning project (three batches of peach jam for my mom and mom-in-law). I taste tested the jam perhaps a little too frequently, but otherwise I stayed away from sugar and wheat, and actually ate very well today.
And tomorrow will be another good day, of this I'm sure.